Monster colour

Qn: What colour are gremlins?
Ans: Monster colour.

last day of school but i'm not happy, not happy at all.

u know how some people see me as this smart person and hence must do well in exams? Well i have to say i'm not smart and i dont always do well in exams. in fact i'm pretty new to this 'great exam results' game. I've never been a better than ave student until somewhere in JC. Something sort of clicked and i seemed to be able to get things better. but that doesnt mean i dont have to study or am some sort of genius. but i guess i dont really care wat pple think and am not really pressured to do well just because pple think i shld. but. I want to do well for myself.

second thing. well i've never been one to worry about exams. i have always seemed to manage fine just studying normally b4 exams, and i dont think too much about it. i dont usually feel the nervousness or the stress some pple get b4 exams, and i'm happy enough to just sit down and study and find that i'm doing pretty much alright. but now. for this semester. i feel like i'm begining to be pushed to the edge of a cliff. (like my lemmings in the previous post). i'm starting to get really quite stressed abt my impending exams and i'm sorta freakin out that the info isnt sticking in my head as easily as it used to. Seriously the amt of things i have to learn n memorise this sem is almost hitting my limit. i have never felt this way abt exams and i'm getting worried.

like half of the sg vets are freakin out and are really stressed and look terrible. but i cant really say that i'm stressed too cos all pple say to me is like 'aiyah you're a genius la dont need to study la etc etc etc'. so i guess i just want a place where i can shout out loud that i'm human and i feel stress too. it doesnt matter in the end if i end up with good results, the fact is i'm seriously feeling stressed out NOW. nobody said pple who do well arent entitled to be freaking out.

ok let me talk abt other things. a couple of days ago we had that cirriculum evaluation thing where pple got to voice out their opinions on the subjects... and it was damn funny to watch. seriously entertaining. of course the ang mohs were doing most of the talking, and u know how pple say sg pple complain alot? well they complain like shitloads of stuff here. haha but not that most of it is not valid la. And pple were like totally bashing some lecturers (which i totally approve of course those lecturers got some serious attitude problem). and the subject pple had most strife with was pathology. bloody pathology. it was damn funny the way they said that the patho woman seemed really happy when we do badly in tests, and that she expects us to know stuff even though none of us had any training in patho b4... and how she says that even an idiot on the street can ans what we answer. and then there is james. the guy that doesnt tell us abt tests until a few days before though pple have been chasing him for weeks, the guy that didnt tell us the format/duration/what sort of qns to expect for today's microbio prac exam.

ah well. time squeeze more things into my brain now. exam's a week away and i still have a shitload of things to study. and the lecturers are not helping by piling more work on us just b4 school ends. i really hope i can get back into my 'slackish' study mode.

nap time

Ok picture in your mind thousands of little lemmings hurling themselves off a cliff to their deaths. Now imagine those lemmings are my brain cells. I've picked up some seriously bad sleeping habits here. i sleep an average of 5 hrs mon-fri, and 2 days ago i slept for just under 3 hrs cos i was cramming for my microbio test. i'm surprised i could even complete the test considering 3/4 of my brain was asleep.

i need to get more sleep :(

of course that means i'll actually have to set a proper studying schedule. sigh.

i hate the physio lecturers for being so bloody sneaky. last 2 weeks of school and they suddenly drop 3-4 new topics on us. All along it seemed like physio was quite managable, not too many things to study... and then they mash everything tgt just b4 school ends.

ok i need to take a nap now to replenish my REM sleep so that i can study better.