i wish i were home. i wish i would shut up. i wish i would stop annoying myself. i wish i would stop thinking. i wish i can just get through a day without letting my mind slip. i wish i can concentrate more on my school work. i wish i didnt have to go to class tmr. i wish i have more self-restrain when it comes to anime. i wish i can make the right choices. i wish i would stop kidding myself. i wish i can have more motivation to exercise. i wish i would stop imagining things. i wish i would stop thinking dumb things that are not true. i wish i weren't so idiotic. i wish i would stop wishing.
wishful thinking obviously.
unfortunately, i've been having mostly uber boring lectures so far... though that prac where we learnt how to scrub up and prepare the patient for surgery and learn basic suturing was quite interesting. been in uni for a week, feels like a month. come on lectures... get more interesting please!
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
half-way home :)
When will i learn to keep my mouth shut? my god all the verbal diarrhoea that i've been spewing out... i shld learn to just shut up cos a couple of days later i'd feel more or less ok again and then feel like a total idiot for complaining so much. so yea i've gone on from the end-of-the-world mood to couldnt-care-less mood (which is just as bad if u look at it from an exam point of view)....
ok so now i'm mid way thru my exams. i've finished four papers.. but somehow i've got four more to go. this exam is taking such a damn long time..... i;ve concluded that our leturers have been overtaken by alien beings and have all gone psycho. the papers are either: too many marks and nothing to write/ too many things to write for too few marks. Or they test us on something we learnt LAST YEAR. like today's AHM... when it was over... everyone was staring at each other and went... 'what the hell is DFD meat?!' haha.. well i know what it is but i dont know what the letters stand for... was wondering if the lecturer would give me marks if i wrote 'damn freakin disease' but i thought otherwise. :)
ok time to mug like mad for path.. possibly the worst format of exams ever... cos they are going to give us a slideshow for prac.. each pic up for 1.5mins and we haveta ans the qns. going by their idea of 'short ans' (as seen from their quizes), we'll never have time to ans the qns and we cant go back n see the pics. in fact we had something like for microbio but we had 3 mins(n more cos that guy is damn slack abt keeping time) for each pic and still there was hardly enough time.
ah well... going home soon! woohoo!
ok so now i'm mid way thru my exams. i've finished four papers.. but somehow i've got four more to go. this exam is taking such a damn long time..... i;ve concluded that our leturers have been overtaken by alien beings and have all gone psycho. the papers are either: too many marks and nothing to write/ too many things to write for too few marks. Or they test us on something we learnt LAST YEAR. like today's AHM... when it was over... everyone was staring at each other and went... 'what the hell is DFD meat?!' haha.. well i know what it is but i dont know what the letters stand for... was wondering if the lecturer would give me marks if i wrote 'damn freakin disease' but i thought otherwise. :)
ok time to mug like mad for path.. possibly the worst format of exams ever... cos they are going to give us a slideshow for prac.. each pic up for 1.5mins and we haveta ans the qns. going by their idea of 'short ans' (as seen from their quizes), we'll never have time to ans the qns and we cant go back n see the pics. in fact we had something like for microbio but we had 3 mins(n more cos that guy is damn slack abt keeping time) for each pic and still there was hardly enough time.
ah well... going home soon! woohoo!
Friday, May 25, 2007
Monster colour
Qn: What colour are gremlins?
Ans: Monster colour.
last day of school but i'm not happy, not happy at all.
u know how some people see me as this smart person and hence must do well in exams? Well i have to say i'm not smart and i dont always do well in exams. in fact i'm pretty new to this 'great exam results' game. I've never been a better than ave student until somewhere in JC. Something sort of clicked and i seemed to be able to get things better. but that doesnt mean i dont have to study or am some sort of genius. but i guess i dont really care wat pple think and am not really pressured to do well just because pple think i shld. but. I want to do well for myself.
second thing. well i've never been one to worry about exams. i have always seemed to manage fine just studying normally b4 exams, and i dont think too much about it. i dont usually feel the nervousness or the stress some pple get b4 exams, and i'm happy enough to just sit down and study and find that i'm doing pretty much alright. but now. for this semester. i feel like i'm begining to be pushed to the edge of a cliff. (like my lemmings in the previous post). i'm starting to get really quite stressed abt my impending exams and i'm sorta freakin out that the info isnt sticking in my head as easily as it used to. Seriously the amt of things i have to learn n memorise this sem is almost hitting my limit. i have never felt this way abt exams and i'm getting worried.
like half of the sg vets are freakin out and are really stressed and look terrible. but i cant really say that i'm stressed too cos all pple say to me is like 'aiyah you're a genius la dont need to study la etc etc etc'. so i guess i just want a place where i can shout out loud that i'm human and i feel stress too. it doesnt matter in the end if i end up with good results, the fact is i'm seriously feeling stressed out NOW. nobody said pple who do well arent entitled to be freaking out.
ok let me talk abt other things. a couple of days ago we had that cirriculum evaluation thing where pple got to voice out their opinions on the subjects... and it was damn funny to watch. seriously entertaining. of course the ang mohs were doing most of the talking, and u know how pple say sg pple complain alot? well they complain like shitloads of stuff here. haha but not that most of it is not valid la. And pple were like totally bashing some lecturers (which i totally approve of course those lecturers got some serious attitude problem). and the subject pple had most strife with was pathology. bloody pathology. it was damn funny the way they said that the patho woman seemed really happy when we do badly in tests, and that she expects us to know stuff even though none of us had any training in patho b4... and how she says that even an idiot on the street can ans what we answer. and then there is james. the guy that doesnt tell us abt tests until a few days before though pple have been chasing him for weeks, the guy that didnt tell us the format/duration/what sort of qns to expect for today's microbio prac exam.
ah well. time squeeze more things into my brain now. exam's a week away and i still have a shitload of things to study. and the lecturers are not helping by piling more work on us just b4 school ends. i really hope i can get back into my 'slackish' study mode.
Ans: Monster colour.
last day of school but i'm not happy, not happy at all.
u know how some people see me as this smart person and hence must do well in exams? Well i have to say i'm not smart and i dont always do well in exams. in fact i'm pretty new to this 'great exam results' game. I've never been a better than ave student until somewhere in JC. Something sort of clicked and i seemed to be able to get things better. but that doesnt mean i dont have to study or am some sort of genius. but i guess i dont really care wat pple think and am not really pressured to do well just because pple think i shld. but. I want to do well for myself.
second thing. well i've never been one to worry about exams. i have always seemed to manage fine just studying normally b4 exams, and i dont think too much about it. i dont usually feel the nervousness or the stress some pple get b4 exams, and i'm happy enough to just sit down and study and find that i'm doing pretty much alright. but now. for this semester. i feel like i'm begining to be pushed to the edge of a cliff. (like my lemmings in the previous post). i'm starting to get really quite stressed abt my impending exams and i'm sorta freakin out that the info isnt sticking in my head as easily as it used to. Seriously the amt of things i have to learn n memorise this sem is almost hitting my limit. i have never felt this way abt exams and i'm getting worried.
like half of the sg vets are freakin out and are really stressed and look terrible. but i cant really say that i'm stressed too cos all pple say to me is like 'aiyah you're a genius la dont need to study la etc etc etc'. so i guess i just want a place where i can shout out loud that i'm human and i feel stress too. it doesnt matter in the end if i end up with good results, the fact is i'm seriously feeling stressed out NOW. nobody said pple who do well arent entitled to be freaking out.
ok let me talk abt other things. a couple of days ago we had that cirriculum evaluation thing where pple got to voice out their opinions on the subjects... and it was damn funny to watch. seriously entertaining. of course the ang mohs were doing most of the talking, and u know how pple say sg pple complain alot? well they complain like shitloads of stuff here. haha but not that most of it is not valid la. And pple were like totally bashing some lecturers (which i totally approve of course those lecturers got some serious attitude problem). and the subject pple had most strife with was pathology. bloody pathology. it was damn funny the way they said that the patho woman seemed really happy when we do badly in tests, and that she expects us to know stuff even though none of us had any training in patho b4... and how she says that even an idiot on the street can ans what we answer. and then there is james. the guy that doesnt tell us abt tests until a few days before though pple have been chasing him for weeks, the guy that didnt tell us the format/duration/what sort of qns to expect for today's microbio prac exam.
ah well. time squeeze more things into my brain now. exam's a week away and i still have a shitload of things to study. and the lecturers are not helping by piling more work on us just b4 school ends. i really hope i can get back into my 'slackish' study mode.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
nap time
Ok picture in your mind thousands of little lemmings hurling themselves off a cliff to their deaths. Now imagine those lemmings are my brain cells. I've picked up some seriously bad sleeping habits here. i sleep an average of 5 hrs mon-fri, and 2 days ago i slept for just under 3 hrs cos i was cramming for my microbio test. i'm surprised i could even complete the test considering 3/4 of my brain was asleep.
i need to get more sleep :(
of course that means i'll actually have to set a proper studying schedule. sigh.
i hate the physio lecturers for being so bloody sneaky. last 2 weeks of school and they suddenly drop 3-4 new topics on us. All along it seemed like physio was quite managable, not too many things to study... and then they mash everything tgt just b4 school ends.
ok i need to take a nap now to replenish my REM sleep so that i can study better.
i need to get more sleep :(
of course that means i'll actually have to set a proper studying schedule. sigh.
i hate the physio lecturers for being so bloody sneaky. last 2 weeks of school and they suddenly drop 3-4 new topics on us. All along it seemed like physio was quite managable, not too many things to study... and then they mash everything tgt just b4 school ends.
ok i need to take a nap now to replenish my REM sleep so that i can study better.
Monday, April 30, 2007
more ramblings of a tired mind
Isnt neko such a handsome boy? Haha but dont be fooled by the pix. he's actually a really clumsy and whiney boy. but he's still my pretty pretty boy. :) but he does look good in pics except that cos he's all black sometimes it's really hard to distinguish his features. i used him as my model for the banner for the Singapore Vet Students Society (no, it's not exactly a REAL club). see the banner here! if u look closely at the banner u'll notice a white paw on the bottom right corner of neko's pic. it does look like it's part of his foot but... he's an all black boy. that's actually maumau's paw :)
sigh miss all my animals. still dont know how i'll actually react when i get home though.
right now i feel like my head's abt to explode... but that's probably just my flu talking. have been sick for the past 2 days. :( :( :( i want casey here to cheer me up.
cant wait for spiderman. wanna go watch it in the imax theatre and give myself a headache from spidey swinging across the giant screen. and i cant wait to go HOME!!!!!!!! will be doing a week of farm work at the quail farm back home... haha maybe can bring back free eggs!!! but dammit yea that means my exams are like coming real soon. and the s'pore pple all have just abt finished/finishing their papers. sigh. well at least my exam timetable is quite okay and spaced out... seriously i'm damn lucky they decided to change the format this year and removed most of the prac exams and made them part of the ciriculum instead... so instead of the TWELVE papers they had last year.. i have EIGHT. i think i would die if i have to take 12 papers.
sigh miss all my animals. still dont know how i'll actually react when i get home though.
right now i feel like my head's abt to explode... but that's probably just my flu talking. have been sick for the past 2 days. :( :( :( i want casey here to cheer me up.
cant wait for spiderman. wanna go watch it in the imax theatre and give myself a headache from spidey swinging across the giant screen. and i cant wait to go HOME!!!!!!!! will be doing a week of farm work at the quail farm back home... haha maybe can bring back free eggs!!! but dammit yea that means my exams are like coming real soon. and the s'pore pple all have just abt finished/finishing their papers. sigh. well at least my exam timetable is quite okay and spaced out... seriously i'm damn lucky they decided to change the format this year and removed most of the prac exams and made them part of the ciriculum instead... so instead of the TWELVE papers they had last year.. i have EIGHT. i think i would die if i have to take 12 papers.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
woohoo!
i've got a microbio test tmr and as usual i must find the most illogical time to be blogging (:
haha maybe it'll turn out like my pathology test where i made up my own genus and species :P the prof said he wasnt that particular abt spelling mistakes when it came to the latin names for the organisms... but i dont think he'll appreciate my very own creations.. haha i was laughing to myself while i was writing the damn things. like i knew like the 1st couple of letters so i wrote ChryXXXXXXX ruXXXXXX yea basically just fill in the Xs with any rubbishy stuff.
but well the woohoo! in my blog heading is definately not abt my tests n stuff... it's cos i'm going to S.AFRICA in december!!! so excited!!! it's a vets in the wild safari tour specially catered to us vet students by some company.. v.expensive though so i'm now in uber-stingy mode. it's for 3 weeks and i cant wait for it!
let's see what else... oh yea though i'm in uber-stingy mode i went clubbing (hmm that probably means i'll have to not eat like 2 meals to recover money loss.. haha) to this super posh club. seriously the decor was damn classy... they had velvet walls and chandeliers and even the toilet was super poshy. too bad the djs werent all that good.
ok time to continue on my quest for microbio excellence (O.o)
haha maybe it'll turn out like my pathology test where i made up my own genus and species :P the prof said he wasnt that particular abt spelling mistakes when it came to the latin names for the organisms... but i dont think he'll appreciate my very own creations.. haha i was laughing to myself while i was writing the damn things. like i knew like the 1st couple of letters so i wrote ChryXXXXXXX ruXXXXXX yea basically just fill in the Xs with any rubbishy stuff.
but well the woohoo! in my blog heading is definately not abt my tests n stuff... it's cos i'm going to S.AFRICA in december!!! so excited!!! it's a vets in the wild safari tour specially catered to us vet students by some company.. v.expensive though so i'm now in uber-stingy mode. it's for 3 weeks and i cant wait for it!
let's see what else... oh yea though i'm in uber-stingy mode i went clubbing (hmm that probably means i'll have to not eat like 2 meals to recover money loss.. haha) to this super posh club. seriously the decor was damn classy... they had velvet walls and chandeliers and even the toilet was super poshy. too bad the djs werent all that good.
ok time to continue on my quest for microbio excellence (O.o)
Monday, April 16, 2007
random ramblings III
I've this immense urge to draw(manga + animals), write a book, play the piano(if only i had one), reformat my websites, send out newsletters, all at the same time now. And this is despite the fact that i have a damn tedious RAD tmr (the other grps all couldnt finish it) with 16 parts to do, pharmacology quiz and practical on wed, more anatomy prac on thurs, parasitology midterm on friday, pathology quiz on next monday and microbio quiz sometime next week. and that's not including most of my normal lessons and pracs. and i have to hand up my microbio assignment/presentation thingy soon. and my VPH assignment too. dammit.
i guess basically what i'm saying is that i'm wanting to do stuff that is equivalent to NOT studying. sigh. procastination is the bane of every student. seriously give me a black pen and a scrap piece of paper and i'm doodling away my time i shld be spent studying. Or just sit me infront of the com and i'm doing stuff like this - blogging - wasting my time yet again. or sit me in a corner of the room and i start daydreaming and spacing out. So yea basically no matter the situation, i'm just not studying.
i guess basically what i'm saying is that i'm wanting to do stuff that is equivalent to NOT studying. sigh. procastination is the bane of every student. seriously give me a black pen and a scrap piece of paper and i'm doodling away my time i shld be spent studying. Or just sit me infront of the com and i'm doing stuff like this - blogging - wasting my time yet again. or sit me in a corner of the room and i start daydreaming and spacing out. So yea basically no matter the situation, i'm just not studying.
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